Abigail Alvarez

I'm gone , and gone in the air , and I'm lost in a way but waiting to be rescued in the other hand , The boy told me stories and anecdotes I'd never heard from the mouth of 18-year-old , lies and years and months have gone by , and they wrapped bad decisions , happy days and tears. Walking down the streets I realised how long I've been making some mistakes , or I just got to know myself a little bit better , how much I need to improve in order to be a better person and how much I need to change . Talking to people , sometimes , you realise how much you have to win or lose , and how hard life can be for some people and for some how easy it can be , “well you have to keep on pushing” or that's what everyone says , even though , it doesn't seem to be true most of the time . You moan , but, as far as I learned , you don't really solve anything by doing that . Sometimes, specially these days , I wish my life would disappear in front of my eyes , but see from the eyes of my soul what my life would have been like , if I would have lived , and then probably I'd regret it , that's how life is , it's like what everyone's says , “when you look for something U don't find it and when you don't need it , there it is “ , I'm quite uncertain if this applies to the situation explained above, because it goes beyond the normal experiences we have in our common tasks. But it's like playing “deal or no deal” , especially when you watch it . If the contestant loses the big numbers and she or he decides to get the bank offer they play again as if they would have played without having taking the offer and it all ends up being the opposite then they get the big numbers. That's life there's a possibility of 50/50 , for everything , well it all depends on the perception or meaning we give to things,  now Morpheus is calling me and I have to go .